This is my second journal of the year, it's just the start of the year and i'm feeling so nervous, confused, and really stressed. I have so much in mind and so much decisions to take. Not knowing what route to take. My family has big standards for me; they always say “ you have to be someone important in life! You have to do something better in life than us and go much more farther than us”, that just puts so much pressure on me but at the same time it brings so much motivation to me because I know they work really hard for everything we have & they expect me to hard work for all my goals and everything I desire. I know that they want nothing but the best for me. Going to CNA and assisting to school at the same time is definitely not easy but i'm still managing to get my school work done. I am determined to pass my classes! its taking a lot of motivation and sleepless nights but I will do it!
I remember the love the joy school would bring to me, now it's something that just brings me down. I understand that is just a matter of time until this is all over, but time is just ticking slow. i've always believe that if you love something you should pursue it, but if am not feeling school should I really pursue this in life? I am never going to get old, I am never going to be an adult, I want to be a kid for the rest of my life. Those were my thoughts I used to have when i was younger. Now age is actually something. July 9th is my birthday and I am already going to be 18 years old, and it actually scares me a bit. I have many challenges coming my way, but I know i'm going to accomplish them all. I know that once I get out of highschool or even when I turn 18 I will have to be able to depend on myself I will have to be able to make the best choices for myself and not depend on my parents anymore.
My classes are so far going good I am not so far behind on any class but I really need to try harder to pass biology. I have been working really hard not only in school but also out of school. When I don't have my CNA class I really try to focus my day on homework to either catch up on or get ahead. My electives are going really good I am enjoying my color guard class and i've been practicing really hard for the parade we will be performing in during the orange blossom. I honestly believe that this has been not only a good semester but a very great one and I can not wait for my last semester. I wanna be able to pass seven out of seven classes so i'm really trying my best to reach my goal.
I remember the love the joy school would bring to me, now it's something that just brings me down. I understand that is just a matter of time until this is all over, but time is just ticking slow. i've always believe that if you love something you should pursue it, but if am not feeling school should I really pursue this in life? I am never going to get old, I am never going to be an adult, I want to be a kid for the rest of my life. Those were my thoughts I used to have when i was younger. Now age is actually something. July 9th is my birthday and I am already going to be 18 years old, and it actually scares me a bit. I have many challenges coming my way, but I know i'm going to accomplish them all. I know that once I get out of highschool or even when I turn 18 I will have to be able to depend on myself I will have to be able to make the best choices for myself and not depend on my parents anymore.
My classes are so far going good I am not so far behind on any class but I really need to try harder to pass biology. I have been working really hard not only in school but also out of school. When I don't have my CNA class I really try to focus my day on homework to either catch up on or get ahead. My electives are going really good I am enjoying my color guard class and i've been practicing really hard for the parade we will be performing in during the orange blossom. I honestly believe that this has been not only a good semester but a very great one and I can not wait for my last semester. I wanna be able to pass seven out of seven classes so i'm really trying my best to reach my goal.